This is what i love

Twinking in their eyes, smile on their faces,the way they say "aguu"....

this from my collection of some 100 + baby pics :) u all r cho chweeeeeeeeeet ...OH my GOD this is beauty in true sense!!

Missing u guys..missing d innocence!

Shivani just mailed me d pics... these are the kidos I have grown up with and did most of the kidas with !!mwah (*1000) miss ya all!!

• Pixy : when did ya study?how do u knw so much abt the world,how can u watch a movie at nite n stil score ;)
  
•  Nidhi (my best friend):punju kanju!!
  
• Pragya (contagious laugher): hahah :D ..idiot hw can u laugh over Aseem thingii!NV partners,Mtv shows,dictionary?,mu dikhai!!stil give me  d wierdest reasons (m:p m sad my friend feels I'm ugly , p:oh she is jealous,tashan se jana !!!) 
• Chavvi:mis serious
  
• Nitin:studious
  
• Deepika:street smart,
  
• Vatsala:Guruji,oops I wish i had given heed 2ur advice ;)
  
• Shivani:Happy go lucky wid brains!
  
• Ravneet:how did ya loose so much weight !!
  
• Tanu:Advocate !!!
  
• Ashoutosh;cute che,Manipal mast che !
  
• Dhruv:women killer,chweet to talk and hey pls keep away d dictionary!
  
• Shubhra:hey Dr please do free ilaaj,in btw ur bday parties wer best!!

N in btw my school is soon completing  25 years ,guys I promise b4 states its doon!!

luv ya all .....

Happy bhaiya duj

happy bhaiya duj ...

m glad bhaiya ur part of my life....

LOvve you :)

Dreams :)

They say dreams never do come true..
But they are wrong, I say they do 
I dream of violence, I dream of hurt
I dream of children, they live in dirt
I dream of you, I dream of me
I dream of how this was never meant to be
I dream of my feelings, I dream of my thoughts
I dream of these things, I dream of them lots
I dream of my loved ones, I dream of the dead
I dream of these thoughts, exploding my head
I dream of you yelling, I dream of you crying 
I dream of you hiding, I dream of you lying
I dream of you hurting, I dream of you shutting me out of your life
I dream of the of the only one I can trust, I dream of my knife.
They say dreams never do come true, 
But they are wrong, I say they do. 

Practical?

A friend calls up and says You have changed n I think N say yes!!

Some people might not like the change but yes I have,I have become a liitle more practical n serious abt life...and yes change was not sudden it was gradual and I love it,,n have no problem with the same!

Just realised that it is not obvous that everything that happens to me would always b good coz sometimes coin can flip...so now I'm prepared 4 same...!!!

Its new start a  new world!!

Special songs:

All these are special songs..which have recently touched my heart !

Khuch kam.... (Dostana)

Mitwaa re (Ek Vivah )

Tu jaha  (salaam namaste )

Ahista ahista (bachana .. )

Ankhon hi ankhon mein (EMI) :after a long time  a soothing song :)

Forgive your enemies, but never forget their names.

Sometimes its impossible not to hate somebody,its just impossible.....and when you know clearly know what wrong they have done to you..Its next to impossible...

I have changed probably the never existing word like "enemy"  has come up,more then enemy its hatred for some people...sometimes its difficult to ignore people,but then I have learnt to be indifferent."Things" (coz humans have changed to things for me!!) don't effect me now.I'm happy with very few true people beside me at least I know they will not backstab me... (and then everytime I don't have to feel like Julius  Ceaser : "Et u brutus " !!)

Now I don't even feel like talking to people who betrayed me as a friend.. (!!)...just can't be pretentious  and give a call and talk politely and all coz I don't feel like....I have always done things which I feel like ...But then as the old saying goes :

It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend......

At least you know what your enemies will be doing !!!

so better choose a proper friend then repent later !

Hapiness defination..I learnt !

Meet MY pinku ;)

Just got a surprise from bhaiya!!luv ya bhaiya :)

9 days ===1170 !

My struggle since last 9 days ends today with 1170..so it was 1170/9 (According 2 sid ) ... :P

I thought its pretty easy to score but soon realised it is not that easy it seems!I would thank few people who let this 9 day wonder be true 

a)MA-PA :who kept telling me u can do it !

b)Sinihi:Ahh without her I would have not even thought of giving GRE

b)Sid: this friend of mine had full faith in me since day1,n kept motivitaing me ..thanku so much :)

c)Nidhi:My best buddy since years,This Dr friend of mine always talked about "kismat" and motivated me that dear,I will pray for u !

d)Powerprap:predicted the score a day back!!!

e)Nrutya ....without her nothing could happen.. thanku dear

That finishes the list

Thank u Guys :)

i know the score is mediocre but stiil i wanna thank these guys .. ....Luv u all !!

ps: English killed me :440  :(

quants :730 !!

Loved the innocence :)

F.R.I.E.N.D

This is for my best buddy who has always been my side !

"A person who will listen and not condemn 
Someone on whom you can depend 
They will not flee when bad times are here 
Instead they will be there to lend an ear 
They will think of ways to make you smile 
So you can be happy for a while 
When times are good and happy there after 
They will be there to share the laughter 
Do not forget your friends at all 
For they pick you up when you fall 
Do not expect to just take and hold 
Give friendship back ,it is pure gold. "

:)

"I don't think you will 
Ever fully understand 
How you've touched my life and made me who I am 
I don't think you could ever know 
Just how truly special you are 
That even on the darkest nights 
You are my brightest star 
You've allowed me to experience something very hard to find 
Unconditional love that exists 
In my body soul and mind 
I don't think you could ever feel 
All the love I have to give 
And I'm sure you'll never realize 
You've been my will to live 
You are an amazing person 
And without you I don't know where I'd be 
Having you in my life 
Completes and fulfills every part of me."

The White Stripes - We 're Going To Be Friends

I really find this song very cutee...feel so nostalgic :(

"Fall is here,hear the yell
back to school,ring the bell
brand new shoes,walking blues
climb the fence,books and pens
I can tell that we're going to be friends

Walk with me,Suzy Lee
through the park and by the tree
we will rest upon the ground
and look at all the bugs we found
then safely walk to school
without a sound

Well here we are,no one else
we walked to school all by ourselves
there's dirt on our uniforms
from chasing all the ants and worms
we clean up and now its time to learn

Numbers,letters,learn to spell
nouns,and books,and show and tell
at playtime we will throw the ball
back to class,through the hall
teacher marks our height
against the wall

And we don't notice any time pass
we don't notice anything
we sit side by side in every class
teacher thinks that I sound funny
but she likes the way you sing

Tonight I'll dream while I'm in bed
when silly thoughts go through my head
about the bugs and alphbet
and when I wake tommorow I'll bet
that you and I will walk together again
cause I can tell that we're going to be friends "

Search for FELICITY.....coNtinues!.

Sometimes in life u become somebody ,you never dreamt of becoming....You become negative,start disliking people around you,,probably now u have got the insight into lot of situations...u can differentiate between a genuine gesture and fake....

Probably the "4" th year has been lucky for me..I got 2 learn lot of things...probably the person whom I considered close and supportive turned out 2 b wrong...I came 2 know about reality,probably I was living in the world of mirage...It was illusionary coz everything was fabricated by me...I just overlooked some very clear indications of "fakeness"..but then I did learn my lessons...and I'm thankful 2 all those people who took my innocense and made me a big girl.....for me my fundas about people change..now I do understand to certain degree people around me and belie of goodness...

Sometimes in life we consider everything so perfect that we do overlook "the reality",probably we don't want to face the real world music.....I'm sommebody who just can't pretend things 2b okay with people who did wrong to me,my body language ,my gesture changes automatically unknowingly...I give cold vibes 2 people and get into my shell....and if I know somebody has capacity to hurt  me ....I would prefer not to talk to that person than feel sad about the same later.....

My best friend (Nidhi )  told me that "Mahak change is required,u can't be Mother Terecca all the time,,if people don't care about u ...stop thinking about them...coz nobdy is gonna help u end of the day its you and ur mirror image who is gonna stay with you all the while"...but I guess my gregarious nature has been  overtaken by the rudness of the world..

There is this old song by Emilla ..it tells about tranformation of a girl....into a big girl..I have actually grown up listening to it ....

"'Im a big big girl 

In a big big world 

It's not a big big thing if you leave me 

But I do do feel that 

I do do will miss you much 

Miss you much... 

I can see the first leaf falling 

It's all yellow and nice 

It's so very cold outside 

Like the way I'm feeling inside 

I'm a big big girl 

In a big big world 

It's not a big big thing if you leave me 

But I do do feel that 

I do do will miss you much 

Miss you much... 

Outside it's now raining 

And tears are falling from my eyes 

Why did it have to happen 

Why did it all have to end 

I'm a big big girl 

In a big big world 

It's not a big big thing if you leave me 

But I do do feel that 

I do do will miss you much 

Miss you much... 

I have your arms around me ooooh like fire 

But when I open my eyes 

You're gone... 

I'm a big big girl 

In a big big world 

It's not a big big thing if you leave me 

But I do do feel that 

I do do will miss you much 

Miss you much... 

I'm a big big girl 

In a big big world 

It's not a big big thing if you leave me 

But I do feel I will miss you much 

Miss you much... "

My contagious laugh !!

PRESENTATION:

Yestday we guys had a  group seminar on "Expert system",Sid n me wer supposed 2 talk abot Mycin part...but the wait turned out 2 b 2 long..as in the seminar session started at 8,and sir told me 2 pick up chits(I had gne 2 him wid lame execuse 2 leave our grp early ;) ) ...but then in none of d chit our group's name came...It was already 2-30 and our zeal 2 speak had died...

There was last 5 groups left @ 3,we wer one of them....so again d chit thing happened n gues what our group came last :P

By the time it  was our chance sir gt bored,he skimmed thru our ppt and tld sid n moi 2 only speak ,It was funny coz d other guys frm my grp had slogged hard :P

So by the time i went up2 say I forgot  half d part so my 7 min presentation came dwn 2 2 min!!so when sid started talking he gave a very funny eg: " of sharpness of eye" of pseudomonas..(i knw he meant mammals) but then i could not control my laughter..oops and guess what i was drroling on d ground ..literary..i  obscured behind the table....even sid could nt control he tld me later..!!!!and even sir gave that smile!!!

JAVA VIVA

It was java viva and hanish n I were supposed 2 go inside....By the time we reached mam started bombarding us wid qns,my fellow started saying all the wierd answer,,,,,oops and guess what i was laughing out loud in front of this very strict teacher,she asked me 2 go out ...but somehw i convinced her ...

But then Hanish started  saying something wierd again initially I  really controlled but in d end couldn't and guess what i was laughing again in front of mam,,but this time she also gave me a smile....I thought she wil kill me,,,,,,but then she started laughing out loud!!and this was shock 4 d  whole class !

The big qn that came after this was how cum I can laugh so loud in such serious situations??

The ans is my dear friend Pragya and dhati who could laugh over the wierdest of joke,wierdest  of thing ,,,,and guess what we could lol over a trival issues for 3 days,,,,and I guess thats why we were considered psycho!!!

but then I cant help my smile is contagious,I 'm sure u r also smiling now !!

ps: There r 1000 mre examples  but i'm feeling 2 bored 2 type !

S-U-C-C-E-S-S ?

Going through  Random sites,I found this Poster..It talks about succes which i guess every single  individual is looking for....personally for me success=happiness,anything that brings smile on my face is "success" for me.It can be meeting small kid on train,after seeing whose face I succeeded over my pain....It can be talking to old lost friend,after talking to whom i succeed in remembering the old glorious past..Or it could be bringing smile on people's face  who know me....(in btw  I have been complimented  by a friend that I'm somebody who can make difference in success and failure in people's life !!)

Ps: This is my worst Post,just gt bored ,so thought of writing some crap!

ICSE: I stil luv it!

It's made me realise how much I love my mom for makin' me do ICSE, and feel good about being proud of the fact that I've done my 10th thru the ICSE.

And for all you kids who didn't, I'm sorry. :)

 

You know you were in ICSE when:

1) You think State Board schools are where only your watchman's and maid's kids go

2) You look different from "the" rest !

3) Randomly using words/phrases such as 'sooth', 'thou art', 'wherewithal' etc is completely normal in 9th and 10th (coz of all the shakespeare)

4) You go to junior college (atleast in Bombay) and automatically become best buds with another ICSE kid, even if he's from the school you hated all your life until then..

5) You are the only one who understands the concept of 'reading time' in an exam

6) You memorised 36 chapters for your hindi paper, but to this day have trouble with constructing a paragraph in formal hindi

7) You went for tuitions for every conceivable subject on the planet, english, hindi, comps, science, history, geography, maths.. and maybe even SUPW

8) You actually understood what SUPW was.. and when you read the above post.. you thought, 'ohhh that's right, we had that shit too'

9) You went to CBSE/State board after ICSE, looked at their english textbook and thought to yourself.. 'man, 2nd graders at my school could've aced this rubbish'

10) Even the peons and the cleaning ladies at school spoke better English than most of your Junior College/College profs

11) Most of your batch had cellphones by the time they were in 9th grade, and they all lived 15 minutes away from school

12) Your Annual Day/ Sports Day parades were more coordinated than the Republic Day Parade

13) Your Hindi teacher often had to resort to English to explain stuff to some of your classmates

14) There had to be atleast one celebrity kid in your batch (there just has to be!.. especially in Dehradun )

15) Your school participated only in inter-ICSE sports fest (they pretended they didn't want to associate with all the hoi polloi.. but the real reason was that they would get creamed by the State Board kids)

16) There was atleast one kid whose parents earned more than all the parents at the neighbouring State Board school put together

17) A score rise of 30% from your prelims to the Boards was considered perfectly normal

18) you actually prayed to Xavier Pinto and Francis Fanthome before the boards (dunno who the head honchos are now, in my day I prayed to them)

19) Your prom/social looked like a bollywood awards party

20) Some of the chicks in your school were hotter than the current Miss India (note: tribute to ICSE chicks.. I've seen a lot of women all over the country and have never met a really hot girl who wasn't an ICSE product.. ICSE women ROCK!)

21) Your school grilled you so hard that the Boards were the exam that you studied most for in life... and will always stay that way

22) In college most of the other kids drinking, smoking or doing weed are ICSE kids or they're from Delhi (no offence Delhiites.. hehe)

23) You look at what's being taught in your college intro chem course and you go.. 'wait a minute, didn't I do all this in the 8th grade?'

24) You got a 90 plus in the boards and thought you were ready to rule the world.. but then 2 years later you realised that it wasn't enough to clear the IIT-JEE

25) You had your first girlfriend/boyfriend much before 9th grade

26) In junior college/college, you were considered a snob, and you loved it!

27) Atleast one of your friends was driving his own car by the time you were in the 10th grade

28) Your saddest joke, which would have raised eyebrows in scorn in school, leave your "new" (post ICSE) friends in college in peals of laughter...

29) You are unfamiliar to the concept of a textbook.

30) You get your first year Java courses in college waived just cause you have attained the level of a Guru (considering that you took CS in 11th/12th)

31) You see posters on the school softboard which say "Board secretary wanted".

32) You ace all your lab reports in college.

33) You hope, wish and pray that they don't introduce a project in Mathematics over the coming years!

34) You see an "A" in your SUPW and you wonder "Hmmm.... where did that come from??"

35) When you go from the 10th to the 11th:

a) Your muscle mass increases (from carrying the heavy reference books)
b) You are ecstatic because the number of subject goes down to 5. But then suddenly you realise that the course material goes up 5 times!
c) You have participated in atleast one national/international level contest which is not related to a sport.

Universal Soldier

This is 1 song I learnt  in school,it talks about how soldiers are....The author Defines the soldier ......

ps:If u al r wondering how cum I'm talking about soldier the ans is Heroes's promo :P

"He's five foot-two, and he's six feet-four,
He fights with missiles and with spears.
He's all of thirty-one, and he's only seventeen,
Been a soldier for a thousand years.

He'a a Catholic, a Hindu, an Atheist, a Jain,
A Buddhist and a Baptist and a Jew.
And he knows he shouldn't kill,
And he knows he always will,
Kill you for me my friend and me for you.

And he's fighting for Canada,
He's fighting for France,
He's fighting for the USA,
And he's fighting for the Russians,
And he's fighting for Japan,
And he thinks we'll put an end to war this way.

And he's fighting for Democracy,
He's fighting for the Reds,
He says it's for the peace of all.
He's the one who must decide,
Who's to live and who's to die,
And he never sees the writing on the wall.

But without him,
How would Hitler have condemned him at Dachau?
Without him Caesar would have stood alone,
He's the one who gives his body
As a weapon of the war,
And without him all this killing can't go on.

He's the Universal Soldier and he really is to blame,
His orders come from far away no more,
They come from here and there and you and me,
And brothers can't you see,
This is not the way we put the end to war."

Contender (The War continues !! )

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met.

You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better.  You want to settle down for good because now all of a sudden that becomes top priority. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You begin to think a companion for life is better than a hundred in the shack and for once you would not mind standing tall for that special someone which otherwise you had never thought of until now. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!